you're out of my inbox

Hi I am on the world world's slowest dialup writing you an email right now

its almost 8am here.

remember us and you?

got here late last night.

not sure if this is even going to work

this hotel is kinda ghetto

yes

i am having an amazing time

i have never done anything remotely like this

is it pretty rugged?

no

it's pretty laid back

how we are doing it

we saw the most important buddha statue in the world this morning

I'm sorry I lost my dignity. You have that effect on me.

Please if you could put these in a box or bag for me

because i haven't had them in three months

in three months and then i felt like shit

i got so excited i didn't read

i miss Italy

no americans

course not

they are all scared shitless

remember us and you?

let's keep it up when we're all back

im happy to

wont open it unless you tell me to

each one

is like an iron lung

and just your head sticks out

I'll never forget you.

let's keep it up when we're all back

i gotta go though

i love you lots and i think about you all day

but i guess it doesn't matter

seeing your name at the top of this email

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okay so i know you have a lot of emails from me now

i've been through hell

but i have all my bags i still have my passport and i am breathing.

The last two days

I have been woken up by monkeys—

No Americans

I just went for my first voluntary run of my life–

my family here is making me eat a lot.

You did the right thing. You are better by a large margin.

it hit my heart and I feel like we understand enough now,

did my skin ever feel like I will be your wife?

no

how we are doing it.

was it right when we were together?

You're right about us.

I'm sorry I know we said no email

please email me or call me i just really miss you. i leave tomorrow morning. i haven't heard back from you about if thats ok or whatever but i guess it doesn't matter

A few things were left at your apartment.

the honey

the honey wood stick

the gnocci board

air conditioner

rabbit in the closet among bath products

some of my clothes in your hamper

a whole big bottle of my pills i think in the night stand, i need them

some pillows and/or sheets/pillow cases

my soap

my cell phone charger

my laptop charger (both chargers are in the kitchen on the floor in the corner)

Please if you could put these in a box or bag for me

One thing that needs to be said: I was lying in bed thinking about things, and I couldn't let you think that anyone has been a better kisser than you. You are better by a large margin. Seriously. I'm sorry I know we said no email but I think you have to know that!

sorry for the email.

You did the right thing.

and i am breathing.

You are right: You're right about us. I'm so sorry it was so hard for me to say goodbye. I'm sorry I lost my dignity. You have that effect on me. I really regret not being able to say goodbye in person. But you did the right thing.

Me, (who loves absolutely everything about you,

even seeing your name at the top of this email.)

Just for the record, I would have taken anything from you. I would have followed you to the end of the earth. I adored you.

Just for the record, I would have taken anything from you. I would have followed you to the end of the earth. I adored you.

You did the right thing. Thank you.

and i am breathing.

I love absolutely everything about you,

even seeing your name at the top of this email.

the one you remember and fell in love with?

Thank you for what you've written me, it hit my heart and I feel like we understand enough of each other now.

I want you to be happy, I hope you find a way to be, and soon. I was lucky to have so many wonderful years with you and to be able to love you and be loved by you. I'll never forget you.

Your Me, the one you remember and fell in love with.